Details: Self-Improvement is Hard

This is a post about the implementation details behind and between ideas from other posts. It's a deeper look into my thoughts and feelings, so you have been warned. 

I have been reading a lot recently and don't really have anything useful to share, and hence haven't posted in a while.

Reading a lot as in reading almost every waking moment outside of work and necessary stuff at home. Until I got sick of reading. Haha. Too much reading and learning where my brain is telling me it's enough and needs time to process them. 

In the past few weeks, I have been reading about reading fast using your right brain, LOL, and doing math with big numbers in your head, memory techniques, yoga, meditation, and several more books on leadership. It's amazing how much human knowledge there are -- everything that would have taken a lifetime to learn now could be transferred to another person in just a book in a matter of hours. Currently, I am in the process of reading about day to day duties of a manager and re-reading Search Inside Yourself since I don't remember much from the first time I read it at least a year ago. 

Aside from the amazing acknowledge of knowledge transfer from books, it's a lot of information to absorb and actually remember and make use of them. I did try to use some of the memory techniques that I learned, but they still take some practice to become skillful at them and at times still hard to come up with interesting motion pictures for abstract ideas. There is also a concept of a mind map, which I am still not sure how useful that is due to its structure. Once I realize their values and practical applications, I will post about them.

Many of the books also state similar ideas using different words and concepts. There are so many different ways, which makes things harder to fully comprehend. Hopefully, everything will click at some point and then that would make an interesting post -- yet another perspective, but hopefully more consolidated. 

Lastly, I have also been doing yoga and meditation lately -- not just reading about them. Interesting to know that yoga, in its original form from India, encompasses meditation and many other areas. Both takes time to see the benefits, and so while I have positive results so far, still waiting to see how long they last or how far do they extend before posting. At the same time, as this post's subject eludes, self-improvement is hard. Progress has been slow and each day feels like a struggle -- as apparently, that is what it takes to push the body and mind to the next level. For muscle to become stronger, you have to push them to the edge until they become exhausted, and then they grow stronger. The brain, on the other hand, it has a lot of habits and resists change. And even when there is a change, it's subtle and slow, and sometimes it could go backward. So it's all kinda hard -- no wonder most people just don't bother unless they are forced to. It's hard for me to do despite what I know and my life goals of continuous self-improvement, so I don't think it's possible to ask others to do the same. 

Hence, I have been a bit sad as well due to the struggle and that realization. I have also been a bit frustrated at people around me for not trying to be better. At least now, I kinda understand -- it's hard. 

Tonight, I think something did click from the things that I have read. That's acceptance and how that relates to happiness, which I will write a post about now.